So here I am again

After a brief respite... Seems as though whenever something is goofy in a relationship of mine, I run to post something, anything, that will help me work it out in my head. I try to be into it with J, I really do - I try to be upbeat and have fun when we are together - I try to engage in witty conversation, speak on intelligent topics, listen to what is being communicated to me and respond in kind - active listening, if you will...

So tell me this, invisible reader, you're seeing someone for about 4 months, you've dated, spent time together, been intimate on occasion, and although there are a few bumps (what relationship doesn't have them?) and you go out for about 4 hours... first stop, dinner... good eats, not great service, but have fun tasting the different type of food... then to the movies... watching Finding Neverland, a real tear jerker, and during the movie I put my arm on her leg - reassuring touch... about three minutes of that and she's lifting my arm and moving it away from her - later explained as "crowding" her... we get out of the movie and get into the truck - leaving the theatre, she's yawning like every 30 seconds... so being the nice guy, I offer to have her drop me off so she can go home and rest... it's only 930! We drive to the station and on the way she adds a stomach ache to her tiredness, so there'll be no romance... I cannot see that this lady is in any way, shape, or form "into me". Sure, now you'll probably say I'm being insensitive, that it's my fault - I should be compassionate and understanding, but look - I haven't seen the lady since Sunday, and only talked to her a few times during the week - Thursday night at about 830p I was wondering if we were even going to see each other on Friday - I had to call her to see if she would even be interested in going out with me...

I think it's time I stepped out of this relationship... Oh, there's more... we can't go to her place any more because D always works late at night now - I suggest a hotel, we can get a room, but she says no, that she has to get up early in the morning! I have to be at work at 530am, so I guess she means that she needs to get up earlier than that, I dunno...

Instead of getting closer we seem to be moving further apart, not a good thing...

Will keep you posted, invisible reader...